One-Upping the Universe

Turn the lights back on, I’m blogging again.

I’ve missed the structure and therapeutic properties writing has always offered me, and I haven’t written anything, anywhere in a long while. They just elected a new president (they because I didn’t vote for him) and he will likely destroy a lot of people’s lives. I might be among them because I have type 1 diabetes, an expensive disease, and I’m on government insurance, something this president is going to try to do away with. I just found out I probably have no insurance at all until January 1. I live with and take care of my mother, at almost 44, and while we have worked hard to have a good relationship, I have other obligations where I desperately need this energy to go so I can have my own life. I don’t have a job. I DoorDash, which was only ever meant to be for extra cash, not support. I have Bipolar II, which interferes with many of my days whether I want it to or not. And intermittently I can’t hear out of my left ear, causing me to be way more conversationally involved with people than I’d like to be. I’m addicted to Diet Coke, my dog is fat, the price of leaving the house has gone up higher than I can afford, I’m allergic to cats and this guy I just started seeing and liking has 6, etc etc etc,

I have things to talk about.

But this isn’t going to be a complainy blog. The purpose of listing all those things up there were 1. self validation, and 2. to prove that I have things to complain about, but I’m challenging myself to rise above them. When I started doing photography in 2021, I was going nuts from Covid quarantine. I went outside with my camera intentionally to find beautiful things. And guess what – I found them. And I took them home with me to look at them again and again when quarantine started getting the better of me. Just like then, life is hard now. But I’m setting out to find the beautiful, hilarious, weird, different, colorful things that I may be distracted from by the Covid quarantine equivalent that is my life at the moment. It’s okay if I have to look a little harder than normal to find them. That’s the challenge.

Please check back soon and join me on this rise-above quest!